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# Absolute Mayhem: Secret Confessions of a Porn Star Paperback – Bargain Price, October 1, 2010

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    Two "works" in one book: First part autobiography, second part ruminations, score settling & misc.
  

*by M***T on Reviewed in the United States 🇺🇸 on April 23, 2020*

This is a quick read book, great for the beach. The font is big, the spacing is wide, and there are only 237 pages of primary text in 12 chapters, along with a 5-page Prologue and two pages of Acknowledgements. There are sixteen (16) pages of nice color photographs, though only covering her adult film career from 2001-2008. But no Index.Her adult film career--starting in 2000--overlaps with Tera Patrick's and with Stormy Daniels', both in their prime years, and at the end with the comeback of Lisa Ann. All four have written genre autobiographies. Monica's and Lisa Ann's are the most revealing, though Monica's is the quickest and easiest read. And unlike them she was never really a successful "contract star", meaning she spent most of her time freelancing in the trenches, cranking out lots of scenes. She did some big-budget work, but not nearly as much as Tera, for example. And the story of her one personal project--Skin, 2006--ends up so sad because the production company, Platinum Blue, rips her off by releasing a key anal scene, her one & only, in a compilation disc against the terms of the contract, then they go broke (p. 114).The motivation and her mental state when she wrote this in 2009 can be gleaned pretty thoroughly from these three excerpts:- p. 121: "I think I have definitely learned all I needed to learn out of porn. I've seen everything and I've done everything that I've wanted to do. I don't need to do anything more."- p. 162: "Most of the time, drug use is all about needing to anaesthetise yourself from inner pain. I think that's exactly what I've been doing my whole life. I just don't understand why I can't just be sober and be happy with myself."- p. 188: "After more than eight year of this bizarre lifestyle, I need to find something else to do with my life."Ms. Mayhem is essentially burned out and ready to move on, and this book is her final way to monetize her film, modeling, and dancing careers. So BE ADVISED that this feels like it is two different books. The first half, up to page 110, is the adult film star genre "autobiography". Here ending with the death of her estranged alcoholic abusive mother in Nov. 2005. The rest of the book is a bit scattershot, including chapters on her Wiccan spirituality, thoughts on her career & the declining state of the adult entertainment world, her activity on mainstream Hollywood projects, and her failed attempts to make a music career.But she is BRUTAL on herself ("And I, most certainly, have never really felt loved.", p. 152) and the industry. Whether talking about her excessive drug use, her sad failed marriage, the STDs, breast enhancement surgery, or just getting periodically screwed over by other people or companies. And though she does NOT go into great detail about her sex scenes, per se, she does discuss in explicit language the various acts she has performed. Not for the prudish!So you'll read something like this: "I hate one side of my face when I'm being photographed, because of a deviated septum from too much cocaine, but I'm actually too scared to have it fixed." (p. 156) And: "My deviated septum, though, remains a nagging problem. There was one year, 2006, when I was snorting cocaine pretty much every day." (p. 163)Per the Daily Telegraph (10/9/2010) she married an Australian veterinarian surgeon. The story mentions wanting a family in the future. I hope they were successful! Fascinatingly, she never reveals her actual name, which isn't in the book nor found on her IAFD, IMDB, or Wikipedia entries. She discusses on p. 216 an HBO project from 2008 where they would've required her to use her real name; it fell through.Like many works in this genre (e.g., The Secret Lives of Hyapatia Lee, 2000), one wishes there were a future update to see if the outcome is more positive than the life lived in the book.

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    Very authentic
  

*by D***K on Reviewed in the United States 🇺🇸 on January 11, 2019*

I bought this on a whim. I really enjoyed Christy Canyon and Traci Lords books and it’s a topic that I’m not very knowledgeable about and that is not often written about. So I took a shot and am glad I did. She adequately described many things without having to get to graphic. In simpler terms she wrote about herself the person instead of herself the porn star. Yes, the porn, business of porn, and some of the graphic things are discussed, but not dwelled on. She wanted to use this to say “I am more than this beautiful woman who has sex for a living” and she succeeded in that.  What I do for a living I hear the words “work” and “shoot” a lot. Work meaning your making something fake seem real, trying to portray yourself or what you’re doing as something ofher than it is and shoot meaning it’s real, what you are seeing or hearing is exactly what it is. This book came across as a total shoot in that she didn’t try and make you think she’s anything, saying “this is me, this is who I am, I won’t downgrade it and I won’t glamorize it”.

### ⭐⭐⭐ 







  
  
    Quick read
  

*by A***R on Reviewed in the United States 🇺🇸 on March 27, 2022*

Entertaining n insight into life before n after stardom

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